some may have noticed, who followed me on there or have checked the homepage recently, that i left backloggd, this wasn't really much of a big deal to me since i had no real attachment to the site but i figured i'd give an explanation at least for those that did follow me on there, i had made the account before i'd even made the site, maybe a year or so beforehand and i still had a use for something like it, but i never really engaged with its community at all mostly because i was nervous about interacting with people who were into video games on a wider site like that, over time i did check more and engage a little with that community but i never found myself vibing with it at all. i find the very idea of trying to rate games on an objective scale to be silly, rating art in general this way feels very silly to me so this was kind of a doomed endevour from the start and after seeing how its community was in the past few months it just fully cemented that, i don't expect people to see art the same way as me and i'm super happy for people who want to engage with it in that "rating objectively" sense but there was just such an annoying culture surrounding the people on there who seriously engaged with this form of thinking that really bothered me any time i tried to engage with them at all, throwing around terms like "contrarian" (contrarianism isn't real, it's just an excuse to discount the views of people who like things you don't) and so much negativity that it just scared me off and i always left a little upset any time i checked the homepage and saw so much shitflinging or negativity, weather i liked the game in question or not that stuff is just so exhausting and it's the very thing that i'd hoped to leave behind when i made this website and deleted social media, and so i deleted my account, there's more too it, i guess, the site in the past few months had some serious problems with moderation, things like rape victim blaming and apology on the front page under the popular reviews, gamergate 2 ragepandering under whatever new game it was popular for a certain brand of men to hate and *tons* of fucko misogyny, both from said gamergaters and from people who, frankly, should know better, people who think putting "white" in front of women suddenly makes their rampant misogyny good and moral, it doesn't, you're a misogynist, you're gross and i will not respect you or your views, you're part of the problem no matter how much you claim not to be, this latter thing being fucking all over the place under basically any game popular with women that could be seen as "cringe", "bad" or problematic in any way, or sometimes even just games that happen to be popular with women that said users have decided is bad purely because of that fact (naturally without playing it). so yeah, i don't miss it and i won't go back, i do miss some users on there and the genuinely good writing they posted, but the fact that the place was an overal detriment to my life makes me not regret leaving it at all.

19/01/23
figured i might as well start one of these now that my site feels like i'm getting the hang of it, kinda. found out i enjoy making pixel stuff and that made me happy, for sure going to keep at it, still need to work on the quality of my work though. same with my code, which is very basic right now and on pages you cannot access, before i chose this theme my site was all my own code and it looked so bad, but it is something that i am working on. i never really learned much on coding before now so its all new to me, but i am making a real attempt, i want to one day make a good hand-coded site. i do feel a lot of passion for the site, and for what neocities stands for in general, i've felt dissallusioned from the mainstream net for years but i could never put my finger on why, but since i really started writing for the site regularly i've regained a lot of that passion, the mainstream net just doesn't click with me and at this point i don't think it will again, it's too stifled by corpo intrests. the music for this page is sabbath from the saya no uta OST, this is my favourite song. it's been my ringtone ever since i first got a phone as a teen, it was one of the first games i ever played (yeah i was way too young to play saya) and it was my first VN too, heck it dates how long ago this was that i found out about the game on the *gametrailers forums*, good times, the game still remains a favourite of mine, if partially because of nostalgia, i even cosplayed saya when i was 16 to a convention, though no one recognised the cosplay.
04/02/23
been slow as of late, playing a lot of stuff but not finishing a lot of stuff, getting there though and playing a lot of really cool games, enjoying onimusha and getting back into genshin mainly, plus some hi-fi rush and professor layton. will be away from the site for a while though for a hospital stay, hope it all goes well haha, will have games on me anyway so if i find things to write about i'll for sure update the site while i'm there.
13/06/23
things have been kinda picking up huh, the site feels much better than it used to and i think i've been going at a pretty cozy rate trying to keep one thing done a week, not sure how many people are even reading these but i'm happy some people seem to be, been playing a ton of longer games so some stuff is just taking longer than the rest, dragoon, layton, yakuza and some other longer games just take a lot of time and it's been harder to play games in the sheer heat of summer, but i'm getting there, slowly. been trying to run a server too and thats been a fun time, if a lil slow, but thats how it goes. games showcases happened to, some hype stuff like yakuza, refantasy and not-onimusha but the prevelance of digital only and regionally digital only games is worrying, no adventures of dai in the west, no yakuza gaiden for america and no alan wake 2 for anyone, it's a worrying trend and it for sure hampers my hype a lot, but i'm going to try and remain optimistic, might write about physical games soon anyway while i finish up my next big thing, a complete G4 retrospective!.
11/9/23
wow, new site design! i ended up passing 10K views, made me really happy so i figured it was time for a new design. the design looks nicer i think and the BG is actually an unlockable wallpaper from an old sailor moon mobile game i used to play, i miss it a ton, i never even got rid of the app tile haha, kinda sad i guess. i plan to eventually finish that G4 retrospective, just taking a while, probably going to do some video stuff as well, going through old magazines! i have some ps3 ones and a ps2 one as well as a TON of japanese otome magazines, so that should be fun!
02/12/2023
damn, sites going well so far, hit my 20K already! taking a week break though! just to focus on my studies (JLPT), but i will have something up come wednesday, i'll be going down to dublin for my exam and picking up some games from the store down there, lil place called RAGE (silly name haha) and covering those once i come up! have a nice week!
23/06/24
soooo my laptop broke, thats fun, taking a chance to take a break i guess while i wait for my new one to arrive, was in the middle of writing about devil may cry 3 and a combo page on hypnospace outlaw and secret little haven, but theyll have to wait, typing pages on a phone is noooot so fun.